Screams of lust we cry, tonight you're everything to me no more, as i wake from this perfect dream.i'll escape from your walls.can i not stay and live this lie?go away and i'll think only of myself.And to think that you would not be scared or surprised if i did severed all these ties, this is the end.i'll lose myself in anguish for tonight, help me get over and one last false apology.i feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions.would this be the same?broken pieces will not mend to save our past now, urgency overwhelms me as i must restrain my tears.i refuse to be slave to your false beauty again.i push you away but you are the only thing i know.i just cant help believing in you.the idea of beauty leaves me enslaved, say you will stay for tonight and i promise you this will be the last.Staring blindly into my reflection as a piece of me lost, i am terrified that i cannot breathe without you.i am nothing in my eyes if not lost.i can't see pass your eyes, without them i would die.in a room where i once told you everything, now i am alone.Once beholden to nothing and noone, how is it that i am slave to these eyes which listen with untold secrets, that i crave so wildly to understand?i must steel my heart to your warm gaze once again. i'll claw out my eyes and see you no more.its because of you i sometimes wish that i would die, leaving you behind enraptured by my ignorance, i now deserve sympathy.Well, my heart belongs to you.There is just no reason for you to let life bring you down.Elope with me, we'll have a never ending happiness.
stop ranting about a wife, im alittle irritated by it.but still, congrats wallace.

Lost in love
5:00 PM

today, i'm marking my day that albin made my day. he said today is a better day, because last night i was so stressed up with my problems. NOW im so fucking happy. i cleared my bill, i got some random person msging me, im finally able to get out of my house tonight to meet the rest, i got alittle cash to spend and my hair is in good mood.
have anything like this ever happened before, to you?

Lost in love
4:43 PM

the only way to let it out, is to type it out.
i dont understand what has this changed us to.you are selfish, im paranoid.sometimes, i wish to close one eyes and ignore all the problems.its annoying.i just want to turn back time again. i dont want to be just ignored and thrown aside again. stop being selfish and open yourself, see what you're doing to others. if other things is important compared to the one who love you, then forget everything that has happen. im not going out tml, it simply had spoiled the thought of it. have fun and never looking back. you're not as good as what i thought.problem of mine, i'll seal it to my heart, yes i dont want to have trouble with you.
wednesday dont seem so exciting any longer.even if it takes a spark to ligthen up the load of problem, im rather contented. i dont need you everyday, but just need less than 5 mintues of your time, tell me is it very hard to even spare some?sometimes, i dont feel we should be together.im sorry.
have nothing to say any further.

Lost in love
5:57 PM

The night has come now
The sun has gone to rest
All birds stop singing, hiding in their nest
The stars are sparkling in the deeply sky
For the man in the moon hill can hear the tide inside

Hush now baby, it's time to go to sleep
Mummy and Daddy have counted all the sheep
Hush now baby, don't you cry
Mummy and Daddy are always by your side

The playground to still now
Shadows dance around
Raindrops are falling softly to the ground
Tomorrow's waiting for some that in her hand
More time to play and draw pictures in the sand

Hush now baby, it's time to go to sleep
Mummy and Daddy have counted all the sheep
Hush now baby, don't you cry
Mummy and Daddy are always by your side

Lullaby for Lucas - Standfast

Lost in love
2:42 PM

today i went out to no black face outing. it was enjoyable.i really liked it, its like no jerry there la.MOFOer talked bad about me, burn in hell la.Went to parklane to play pool, as we couldnt catch any muvees due to poor timing. Had the most delicious Chicken rice, with our little tiny eating the most.Went to some wu-lu shopping center, with many 'friendly' security guards.Went to eat Tau Huay where our lovely seoti attempted to eat someone's tau huay(although we think that it was that someone who is trying to eat seoti's tau huay instead.)
took cab with alezevc, eeden and yanxu. all alighted at my house and i went up to get my dog down to show them, i think they liked it. hurhur.and when home, bathed and now blogging.
im like tired now.nothing to do, talking to pika online.yawns.

ciaos. love you all.

Lost in love
12:05 AM

what the fuck is this? arguing over a guy. now i got him back to school and its cancel.you got rachael then you go out with her lor.you dont need me what.have fun then.

whatever, today im quite piss.not here, not there. i dont know and i dont wanna bother too.ah wells, if you all can find me, count yourself lucky. yeah, im washing my hands off.currently im having holidays till 6 july, which im starting my attachment.talking to sienx on the phone since both of us have no lesson today.As for my exam, im probably going to fail.sigh.
take care everyone.loves.

Lost in love
1:43 PM

This Joke is hilarious.
Ask a Doctor.

Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... don't waste them on exercise.Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer;that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster.Want to live longer? Take a nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn.And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficientmechanismof delivering vegetables to your system.. Need grain? Eat chicken.Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable).And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine,that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even moreof the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one.If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! ..... Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil.In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger..You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans ! Another vegetable!!!It's the best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.

Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

Lost in love
3:53 PM

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